The Hardest Night
Tonight is the hardest night of all,
the weight of it presses against my chest,
heavy with silence,
the kind that makes every breath
feel like questions left unanswered.
I am lost,
disconnected from the world I once knew,
a broken soul wandering through shadows,
and the voices, they whisper,
blaming the moon –
its pale light casting doubt,
its coldness soaking into my skin.
But no, I say,
it isn’t the moon,
it’s a choice,
one I never wanted to make,
but I do now, as my eyes close
and your face appears before me,
so clear, it hurts.
They told me you would come,
but I never believed,
and yet here you are,
always just out of reach,
distant, untouchable.
I’m sorry,
forgive me –
these words feel too small for the space between us,
but they are all I have.
I love you,
and with trembling hands,
I give you back to the universe,
with all the love,
all the gratitude
I can gather in this broken heart.
Go, be where my heart
and my mind cannot follow,
and may the stars hold you
as I never could.
