Tonight is the hardest night of all,
the weight of it presses against my chest,
heavy with silence,
the kind that makes every breath
feel like questions left unanswered.
I am lost,
disconnected from the world I once knew,
a broken soul wandering through shadows,
and the voices, they whisper,
blaming the moon –
its pale light casting doubt,
its coldness soaking into my skin.
But no, I say,
it isn’t the moon,
it’s a choice,
one I never wanted to make,
but I do now, as my eyes close
and your face appears before me,
so clear, it hurts.
They told me you would come,
but I never believed,
and yet here you are,
always just out of reach,
distant, untouchable.
I’m sorry,
forgive me –
these words feel too small for the space between us,
but they are all I have.
I love you,
and with trembling hands,
I give you back to the universe,
with all the love,
all the gratitude
I can gather in this broken heart.
Go, be where my heart
and my mind cannot follow,
and may the stars hold you
as I never could.
